To Kill With Kindness Or Not??

1) TWITTER FONE is waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy better than TWITTERRIFIC. I was so lost and confused!! Had to get that off my chest.

Hmm...there's apparently a "theme" to my blogs as I re-read them, but neways...

Okay okay soooo NYE party @ Angela's we're discussing "New Year's Resolutions".. then my roomie Ryan comes up with an idea where we tell eachother what that person needs to work on as a resolution. The consensus on ME & what my friends and brother think I should work on??

TO BE NICER... GIVE PEOPLE THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT/SECOND CHANCES.

This took me by surprise coz I do genuinely think I am a nice person... just a lot more selective on who I let in or what I put up with... I mean Im 26 now (turning 27 in Sept of this yr.) and I strongly believe that I owe it to myself to only have the best of things - esp. the quality of people in my life. Best believe.

See I think within the past 5 years a lot has happened to me & changed around me... which has led me to this point of being who I am. Wether it was a romantic relationship(s) gone wrong or the worst kind... friendship(s) lost and gone.... its all been contributing factor ,and yes, sadly enough I'll admit,sharp jabs to my heart. So I guess my "heart" got tired of being everyone's punching bag and it toughened up. That's all.
I mean in my eyes... why beat around the bush? Ok so here's the thing. From jump I always try to be friendly. But I guess down the line, we'll either hang out or be in the same group outing or whatever... I can just already start to "see" wether me and you are going to get along... "vibes"... For most people I think this to be in thier eyes as well... you can tell wether or not this is someone you want to continue pursuing more of a friendship/relationship with, whichever it may be.
I USED TO be uber nice, but people took such advantage of my giving nature and basically hurt me really, really bad. So insert > TRUST ISSUES... These days: People must earn this from me.

People I've loved and considered close to my heart changed and suddenly > I was neither good enough for them or some weird "jealousy"/drama was birthed and then I was just completely cut out of the picture. Or I did the cutting coz fuck that shit... Then there's my favorite... the "friends" that turned out to be TRIFLIN', ANNOYING, "TRY-TOO-HARD", ASSED FACE MUTHAFUCKAS... u know who u are. So I say.. NO to second chances & giving people "the benefit of the doubt"... So ladies & gents - that is why I may come off 'MEAN' or a 'BITCH'... add to that - I am a very very passionate person. When I feel something, trust you'll know...

K nuff on that... how bout CARPOOLING? I am for it, esp coz gas prices r going back up. But sometimes... I just dont like waiting on people sometimes and what if they wanna go and I wanna stay or vice versa?? That sucks... I like my freedom of choice.

Soooo many performances coming up!!
2/20: Old Globe Theater @10p
2/22: Cabaret Night @ Mandaville - UCSD. We're closing the show.. so a lil be4 8pm??
2/24: Pacific Events @ 10a in La Jolla, Escondido school assembly @ 11a, Mardi Gras Downtown SD 6p-12a!!!!!

I need to stop my buying $5 dvd binge... crap! 4 mins left in this work day... yippee.. I'll discuss my utter physical pain tomorrow morning! We're blocking for assemblies and pacific events tonight..