Rising Above...

RECENT VIEWING PLEASURE: "Madea Goes To Jail" - C+.
It has some great laughs but the transitions between the two stories were super choppy and at times things were just straight up unrealistic. Give me a little more "in betweens"... For example the love story between Candy and Josh - Great, yea, and eventually we came to find out they were childhood friends who continued onto college together. And during that time she was raped at a party in his bedroom while he was out on a date... and in that tragedy she lost it - and ended up "working the streets", and he forever felt guilty for not being there for her. But this was revealed over a few lines of dialogue. Could I get a falshback or something??Something to draw me into that turmoil they had held onto all these years?!?

A great lesson conveyed thru the film - 'FORGIVNESS'. That's a tough one to swallow. Can I honestly RISE ABOVE?? To truly let go of all the pain of my pasts. Forgiveness IS NOT FOR THEM. It is for YOURSELF/MYSELF. Once I learn to forgive myself and stop being the victim, claiming I am what I am today because of THEM & what THEY've done to ME is when I will finally be FREE. Like I said. Tough one to swallow. Its def easier to point the finger at someone else. I do want to rise above. Many a people have angered, hurt, disappointed and betrayed me. Trust Im not perfect either...I've done my share. That's not the issue here.. PRESENT DAY: Honestly there have been times where I find myself exhausted in being mad anymore. I do just wanna let IT go, but in that I am letting THEM go.

So (with a deep breath & closed eyes): I FORGIVE MYSELF... I FORGIVE THEM... But I do not want/need/desire anything YOU have to offer or give me anymore. Yea its a bit deep coming out of a movie, but GOD works in mysterious ways. Learn to read the signs...

Peeps went to 80's night... but MOndays+$.80 drinks for me is DANGEROUS. I've done it before, and everytime I tell myself, "Ok just two drinks... you've got work tomorrow morning at 8:30am.". And it never fails... that I FAIL to stick to my plan. No bueno... feeling like SHIT at work is not the business. Well not in my book. Especially now that my body is getting older and I dont bounce back as fast as I used to... sorry guys. I'll c u on Friday night where I have Saturday to sleep in and recover from drunken antics. Im sure it was fun last night tho... hmpf!! I gotta do what I gotta do tho =)

Kim Battiste teaching masterclass tonight. Feeling accomplished coz I finished all my laundry last night.. lol. Time for lunch... tbc.