This Little Dance We Do

Dear ____________,

Are you threatened because I'm trying to find out more about you? I know what you're trying to do and I don't think you should bother. I've been thinking about it and this little dance we do , it's nothing more than that. Flirting on the outskirts of "more". I think you should change your mind about yourself. If we got into "this" I just want to know that this time I didn't repeat my mistakes.

Why did you wait??

I could have un-resolved issues with society. Last night I said a lot of things that I didn't mean, but it had nothing to do with YOU. So...I've been thinking about it all night. ME & YOU. The "not pursuing US" part. How you constantly push away. You know "pushing away" means there's actually something to push away from. I wish I could get to the point where I could just resent you ... if you'd only give me a chance.

We can't keep doing this... dancing around things, saying things we don't mean.

What would you say if you said what you really meant?

I'd like to get to know you so I could prove myself wrong. Wrong in thinking that you represent everything I don't want, because honestly, I think you represent everything I'm missing.


-ME

** I just found this on the VERY last page of my journal. A journal that I am not even done writing in? For some reason, some time ago I decided to skip to the very last page and scribble this down. No date stamp so I can't even remember who I was referring to IF this was even really about anyone at all. I've written some hypothetical poems - letters - entries what may you in the past. It blew me away that I wrote this because as I read through, it did not sound like me at all... **