Update?

Nothing tremendously new on the forefront. I'll slowly and surely be updating more frequently now that I have more time on my hands... I have a new job, that I am enjoying. It ties in all my experience into one job and its way more chill than my last position for way more money and benefits!! I still havent gotten the ok from Dr. Basuk to wear contacts. Its annoying coz I cant see shit when I dance or when I go out. I need to reschedule another appt to just get it over with but my work hours dont allow me to. Hopefully now that Im into my 2nd week my boss will let me dip for an hour to get my eyes ok'd and I can go back to normalcy.

I havent given up my pursuit of the LA dance scene... I havent heard of any auditons for DDO or Bloc. Now that I think of it I need to check thier websites for updates!! I did get a close opportunity to audition for this new up and coming artist James Elizabeth. They were holding auditions earlier this month for his 2nd single "Sugar" but I didnt get the email til Thursday and auditions were Saturday ... in SAN FRANCISCO!! I had submitted my resume and photos and the choreographer wanted me to come out but I didnt know about SF til after they had contacted me. I thought the whole thing was out of LA but come to find it was just the actual video shoot itself. Boooo.. she did contact me tho and wants me to come to LA while they are shooting the video to audition for the tour!!! They liked my look and wanna see how I dance!! Holla!

Everything else is pretty much the same old same old really. Crazy people in my life just seem to keep popping up left and right... Well some are not necessarily that much of a surprise. Their horns are just more visible at this point. Crazy bitches.. ahha... they make me laugh seriously. I can't even be mad anymore, coz what's the point?? Thier insecurities over me or whatever it is about me that drives these beezy's crazy (among other things in thier own lives that's getting to them) is their problem not mine. If you allow that shit to get to you, then party on sista. I'm here trying to take care and fix mines while you look like the ass you are - REPEATEDLY. Whomp - Whomp.

Financially - a little bit more stable. Bit by bit is all I can do. You cant squeeze water out of a stone. All I know is I will be ok.. It will all be BETTER. That's what keeps me going.. is my belief in that.

John...John...John... no words, other than "I MISS YOU". Plain and simple. What can I do? We're far apart and both so busy. We'll see where time takes our journey. We'll always be friends tho that's for sure. He's coming down in a month to teach - IM ALREADY NERVOUS. How retarded is that?!!? Get it together Love! Honestly though,I'm not opposed to options. I prefer it, but not in the sense where the men I am interested in are objects. Its more for myself and feeling out what I like in a man and what I dont. Im still in a stage where Im getting to know myself. And still trying to break all the stupid habits and mistakes when it comes to my choices in men & relationships.

I recently came across someone that has actually been apart of my life since we were teenagers. Funny. I would've never pegged myself to be interested, but this one - he's all grown up now and boy does he intrigue the shit out of me. Totally out of my element, but Im drawn to him. Like I said. Father time will tell all.

Sometimes out of my frustrations I secretly do wish I was one of those dudes that just didnt give a flying shit. But deep down I know those guys long for companionship.. those are the ones who are actally the most afraid. FRONTIN'. And I've made it a promise to myself that I will face my fears and no longer RUN AWAY as I've done for so long.

Vegas in 2 weeks with Juli, Barbara, Sister, Thu, Alysia & Suzette. I cant wait!!! I need a new camera damnit... hopefully by the summer summer time =)