Imagine...

I had to edit this coz I re-read it and a whole paragraph disappeared from my original post.... Ghost Writer is that you??? Props to those who know what Im talking bout > that show was the shit!!

Catalina "Peaches" Shoate... YOU'RE WELCOME!!

I just read Cat's first blog entry and it moved me... you know... I had to reach for a tissue. Not just because of her story about her time in Lebanon and the wars going on right outside her doorstep (thank you Cat 4 sharing <3), but of the FEAR she speaks of .

The fear of what ppl will think of my blog, the fear of losing any of my siblings.. FEAR itself. I feel exactly the same way as Cat explained. This blog is for ME.. no censorship here. I mean what the hell would be the point?? I stated my lil head needed to "dump" everything that's been swimming in it lately, so here it is.

Im no English major nor a journalist... so there will definitely be grammatical errors everywhere> SO BE IT!! As to what others will think or MISCONSTRUE about ME... so be that as well. If we're meant to be friends then we will be... I've learned not to let people "in" too easily these days. Like I said "that girl got trampled on"... I used to be such a push over and wished so much for people to "like me" or "accept me". But I was 'being' what I thought they wanted me to be instead of being Lovelyn. I still dont know completely who I am today - a journey I've come to embrace & enjoy, but I've let go of that juvenile desire... you either care for me or you dont. And I either care about you or I dont. Simple as black and white. As human beings I get it, coz I still feel this way --> We always want some type of validation. Of course... but I'm speaking on the CONSTANT RACE for that validation. That's naive. Coz there are a billion ppl on this Earth... with different opinions and feelings. I'd rather have a handful of solid friends than a bunch of people that I couldnt run to in my dark times. But TRUST, if I care about YOU... you one lucky mofo.. coz I got ur back til the end. If I dont... sucks to be you. hahah...

Well HAPPY FRIDAY! Im kinda bummed its so gloomy outside coz its making me sooo lazy! Already 2 cups of coffee, bacon-egg-cheese breakfast pita & some fruit slices deep and its almost lunch time!?? Hell yea! Im currently snacking on yogurt covered raisins at my desk. Yum.
Should I be working?? Totally, but Im not. Yea well. Bossy boss is away so I guess the children will play. LOL!!! I'm glad I finished my laundry last night... I just hate the fact that Im going to be doing the same shit in a week. It's like "Damnit, didnt I just wash that?!!"
I fell asleep watching 'Nights in Rodanthe" with Diane Lane & Richard Gere.. hear its really good and with Nicholas Sparks being the author from which this film is based on, Im sure it will be a tear jerker. Not that it takes much for my pansy ass to shed a few tears. haha... I swear I always cry in movies.. or tv shows.. Im sensitive...

No plans for tonight... I may just stay in. Finish that movie... I should do my shopping for Vanessa's bday party on Sunday.