Heavy Eyelids

I love me some purple so I thought.. hey y not blog in purple today? Im wearing a purple striped sweater to work today anyways... random.

My eyelids... feeling like 10 lbs. each right now... I should go and get a cup of coffee but I've done good so far TODAY and stuck to iced tea and water. I wanna go home and just get in jammies and sink into my bed... or at least relax in some comfy clothes. Seriously need to get laundry done AGAIN... fuck man. With all the dancing I've been doing ... 3-4 rehearsals a week... and as much as I sweat... clothes pile up! UGh... I counted it and I went thru 16 sports bras in 8 rehearsals! Good lawd! I have to double up coz u know... mama blessed me up top.

I think that's wut I'll do.. laundry and sleep. I had to pull out of Darkie/Ramon's project on the 21st. Im just so burnt out and Im at 40% in thier rehearsals.. its not fair to them. This is important to them and if I cant give them 110% in rehearsals I need to pull out. They've got a bomb ass girl cast anyways... they wouldnt miss lil ol' me...

Culture Shock has been fun so far this year. A LOT OF YOUNGER dancers... there's like 8 or more that arent even 21 yet!! lol.... Wish I was at that level of dancing at that age.. I didnt even get enough balls to audition til I was 20 yrs old! Then again I didnt start dancing "hard core" i.e. taking class, team rehearsals, performing til I was 18.
We've been learning a bunch of old pieces that I already know.. and its crazy to see how foreign the movement is on other people. I totally feel their frustrations coz that's where I was a few years back... shit I still feel stupid doing some of those pieces...
Well to end the tireless rant (that I can totally continue when it comes to dancing)... all I have to say is this:
There is a lot of talent, it just has to be accessed. And plenty of TRAINING... I want to disagree with Sherman's statement when he said, "Training is in class NOT in rehearsal."
NO, ITS BOTH!! I was told in my review a couple years back that REHEARSAL IS TRAINING... and I realize that now. Obviously, dancers need to come prepared & on time. I take things very seriously and dancing is one of them.
Im just tired of the folks who "try too hard".. and ironically enough it does have a little to do with how they act in the studio, but its more so their demeanor and how they carry themselves outside the studio that I question and ... "sorry for ya, you had ur chance". Not that Im a mean person... I'd like to believe I am very nice. Obviously not as nice as I used to be years ago... that girl got trampled on. But Im nice, the end.
I just have a lower tolerance for fakes, hidden agendas, and those who try too fucking hard. Chill out shit. How am I ever supposed to get to know the real you if you're up peoples' asses all the time, or just plainly not being yourself... Stop trying to gain anyones and everyones approval but ur OWN, and I promise it'll be a prettier day. TRUST, I talk from experience so its not that I think I'm better. I'm nobody but me. hahahaha... So much for keeping my tireless rant short. Bleh...

I went to Taco Bell today and the lady in the drive thru made my day... her happy-up beat demeanor which was already evident thru the speaker as she asked "HOW YOU DOING TODAY?!"... awesome! (btw I love that word.. awesome.. lol) Even tho she was working the drive thru window she made it seem like a kick ass job. A+ girlfriend!

35 more mins at work... thank you LORD. My boss has been out all day and tomorrow (for her bday) and its a 3 day weekend! Thanks to PRESIDENTS DAY!! I cannot wait to get this funfilled weekend on its merry way.