Bitter - Party Of #1

Some people SMH... Dont you realize it is so much more exhausting to be such a bitter person?? You wallow in your shallow pool of haterade. Doesnt it get old?? Come on now... we are how old? Let's get it together. How about it?? I'm not even angry per say anymore. That was my initial reaction to it. Now I am just thankful. Thankful that I know what to expect from certain individuals. I am thankful GOD has lifted the veil & I can see so much more clearly now. It's disappointing coz frankly I expect more from people that I've "let in" & cared about deeply. I will "kill em with kindness" as the old saying goes. But not to spite these people. But I do so only with the utmost HOPE that my kindness & love for them (or maybe its my naiveness that they will never change??) will be infecteous and they'll realize how they are and make a change? Or try to at the very least. I recently read that a person's negative reactions to others is merely a reflection of themselves. This shocked me and scared me coz its true. This same author wrote that the things that I love and admire about people is my soul merely recognizing things about myself in others. I thought this was great but also came hand in hand with the previous statement. I do not want to be a negative reflection for anyone. ESPECIALLY MYSELF. So I've taken strides to always take a deep breath and check myself anytime I feel like I'm getting angry, irritated, or judgemental.
I am HUMAN and I will have these feelings but I recognize that I can't let that be the end of me. Trust, its been very hard but I am empowered that I have the ability and the strength to do something about it. Go me. hahaha..

Anywho - HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE. Its a sparse Xmas for me - but as long as I have my loved ones close, healthy & smiling, I'm good.